t's funny when you find yourself Looking from the outsideI'm standing here but all I wantIs to be over thereWhy did I let myself believeMiracles could happenCause now I have to pretend That I don't really careI thought you were my fairytaleA dream when I'm not sleepingA wish upon a starThats coming trueBut everybody else could tellThat I confused my feelings with the truthWhen there was me and youI swore I knew the melodyThat I heard you singingAnd when you smiled You made me feelLike I could sing alongBut then you went and changed the wordsNow my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be'sOnce upon a songNow I know your not a fairytaleAnd dreams were meant for sleepingAnd wishes on a star Just don't come trueCause now even I tell That I confused my feelings with the truthCause I liked the viewWhen there was me and youI can't believe thatI could be so blindIt's like you were floatingWhile I was fallingAnd I didn't mindCause I liked the viewThought you felt it tooWhen there was me and you

Source: http://www.lovefatedestiny.com

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Source: http://www.lovefatedestiny.com

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Tree
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The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.




My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
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During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Wind
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Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

July 28. RD Day again! woke up at 5:30 am. still pondering the CPR procedures. took a bath. put on my uniforms. ate breakfatst and off i go! arrived at school at 7:00 am. found out my RD sched is still 5:30pm. Damn! So Me and my classmates practiced for the CPR. we waited and waited. eventually got bored... decided to watch SUKOB instead. Fortunately I still have money left... so yeah, i did come with them. about 20 of us went to Gaisano South. Cinema was still close, so we decided to play at the arcade for awhile. Me and my friends played basketball... waaahhh... 'twas really FUN. we played for a couple of times. when it was 11am, we bought movie passes for SUKOB. we seated at the PREMIER. We seated close with each other and held hands... the movie started and whoa, i love it! haha. it got me screaming til i drop..

When movie ended, went back to school. bought a pineapple juice and ate SAFARI. lol. then, i practiced for our CPR-RD. i practiced dramatizing as a first aider. at 3:30pm, went to MHS to buy a gel. went back to the room where we practiced and asked Sheyna and Mayeth to put make-up on me.. i ended up looking like a GRO.. so i got my eyeshadows rubbed off... afterwards, we went to the main building, talked for awhile and eventually went to the CR to fix our hair. i had my hair brushed up. then suddenly, someone told me that it was our turn for the RD, when in fact it was still 4:30pm!!!! i was totally cramming!!! running!!! dunno know what to do! everything i pondered and prepared for that day suddenly got washed up... but then, i got no choice but to go there and do my thing. performed it well at first! And i think i really did good at it... but later on, i had slight mistakes...and eventually turned out as a couple of mistakes... damn! i got an 83! mygosh! this isn't good! almost failed!!!! and on that day, it wasn't only me who got a low grade.. there's more! they even cried! whooo... that was really tough! didn't expect it'll turn out that way.. didn't expect it'll be a dramatic day!... but anyhow, i am contented with that grade! after all, it was my fault! there's no one to blame for that!

Bad trip ako ngayon... well actually the past few days pa, and up until now... because of someone RUDE! ewan koh!! Yah i know patience is a virtue...pero when i get totally fed up.... ewan ko nalang... pasalamat xa i'm tactful enough para hindi xa patulan!!! pasalamat xa at dinadaan ko nalang sa pagmumura sa loob ng isipan ko..pasalamat xa at dinadaan ko nalang sa iyak! dahil kung hindi na talaga ako makapagpigil, masasaktan xa emotionally... hindi lang ako galit today, malungkot rin!!!! ewan ko!!! nakakaasar na xa! sobra na talaga! i can't bare this anymore! iba na talaga ang talas ng dila niya!!! kala mo kung sinong perpekto!!! hindi porke't i always smile at kengkoy ako, eh hindi ako nasasaktan... hindi porke't mahirap kami eh pwde na niya akong ismolin! hindi porke't iba religion namin eh pwde na nya kaming i-judge! sino ba xa sa akala niya!!! eh ako, kahit ganyan xa, hindi ako nakikialam! TAO rin ako!!! pwde ba???? Respeto lang hinihingi ko! Respect begets respect! Sana respetuhin mo rin ako kahit alam kong hindi naman ako karesperespeto!!! If you claim to be an educated person, matuto kang magpigil!!! wag yung padalos dalos ka nalang ng bigla! you tend to be so annoying!! kala mo ba ako lang ang galit sayo??? marami ka na ring nasaktan! remember??? proven and tested naman DIBA???? kase nga bastos ka!!!!

ako naman, i make sure na wala akong tinatapakang tao! eh siya, alam naman ng marami na may nakakaaway xa bcoz of the way she talks paminsan!!!! Ang taong yun really tends to be very JUDGMENTAL!!!! Before You judge my life, see to it na wala kang kaPunaPuna sa sarili mo!!! make sure perpekto ka! tingnan mo muna sarili mo kung malinis ka ba bago mo tingnan ang iba! bastos ka sa paningin ko! palibhasa walang nagmamahal sayo kaya ka ganyan! Diyos na bahala sayo! Ang dami ko na ngang problema sa buhay dinadagdagan mo pa.. Alam ko naman kung ano katayuan ko sa buhay compared sa katayuan nyo... just don't rub it in! wag mong idiin! alam ko!!! wag mong hayaang mapuno na ako!!! at kahit naman mangyari yun, di pa rin naman kita papatulan dahil ayokong masira ang pagkakaibigan natin (kahit unti unti na itong naglalaho!!! it turns out to be PLASTIKAN nLng)... sana ma realize mo ang mga mali mo! sana magbago ka na!!! wish ko mang masumpa ka, wag nalang! Diyos na Bahala sayo! i know God loves me!!!! He won't let me down with just a lame ass like yours! Alam mo ba... sa sobrang sakit ng mga binitawan mong salita, parang gusto ko nang mamatay!!! if ever ikwento ko kung bakit galit ako sa taong to, it may seem so babaw!!! pero if you were in my situation, sobra pa siguro ginawa niyo... marahil ay mas mag rereact pa kayo!!! maybe mas masasaktan kayo... pero ako, kahit masakit, i kept it to myself lang....ng MAHABANG panahon!!!!! grabe na pag titiis ko! pag naiisip ko yung mga sinabi niya, napapaiyak ako ng bigla kahit pinipigilan ko ng husto, pilit tumutulo luha ko... masakit nga sa lalamunan!!! basta ewan ko ba... am i just being so sensitive?? hindi naman cguro!!! reasonable naman ang pag e-emote ko!hindi naman ako magkakaganito kung walang masamang nagyari diba? alam naman ng lahat na hindi ako madaling magalit... i mean, i never show them na galit or nasasaktan ako...kaya cguro they tend to abuse me!!! nakakainis!!! God please help me!!!!!! habaan nyo pa pasenxa ko!!! make me a happier person!!! make them a better person! haaayyy!!!

Please don't give me that wrong impression just by reading my entries. They may sound exaggerated and overly gushy but I'm NOT like that... I get alarmed when people see me very cheesy... yeah! CORNY??? i hate it! i don't want to be addressed like one... Puhleez!!!

This One's For You! Yes YOU! Go Ahead and READ it

For those nosy, gossip-hungry people going through the ponderings of my mind, hmmm.. it's okay to come and pass by my EXTREMELY PUBLIC BLOG. After all, those are of lazy writings to be considered. They do not necessarily reflect what's inside of me. those are merely entries that shows the happy-go-lucky me! Nothing but false ideas that popped out my silly imagination! As for my avid readers, don't take it seriously... you can't tell by the way i write my entries... i am unpredictable, you know!

Gwen, you're a Romantic!

Your type is the Romantic

There's no such thing as too much wining and dining! You're a sucker for theRomantic. Some flowers...a nice dinner...a little music — right up youralley! Your type places his woman on a pedestal and treats her like aprincess. That's exactly what you crave. Whether you need it or not, youlike the reassurance that a romantic guy provides. With him, you never feeltaken for granted. You don't fall for the tough-guy act — in fact, you'returned off by a guy who's not in touch with his feminine side. The sensitivemale who properly courts a woman will steal your heart every time. A littletraditional? Yup. A little old-fashioned? Maybe so. But did a little extradoting ever hurt anyone? Definitely not.

WEB Tickle Test Results:



Gwen, your crush is the Class President



Hello, First Lady. A smart and motivated gal like you should set your sights high when it comes to your crush. Forget the slackers or burnouts. You should go for a guy who's got brains, ambition, and people skills (good looks wouldn't hurt either). Only an achiever and well-liked beau will be able to keep up with a first-class lass like you.A guy who's heading up the student council, spearheading a car-wash fundraiser, and winning everyone over with his charisma and charm is the right candidate for you. He's the responsible type who'll make Mom and Dad proud. And you'll feel proud when your next stop is the campaign trail or The White House!




Gwen's feedback: "The results are quite impressive kase tinamaan talaga ako...it's really me kase!"

Everyone at home seems to be in paranoia. They really thought there's something going on between the two of us... when in fact there's no such thing as an "US"... We're just friends, okay! We haven't even met for a very long time. I know we're texting beyond a friendly text (as what my sister said) but there's nothing wrong with receiving an "I LOVE YOU" from a guy, right? It's nothing unusual and it's really normal for friends to say that diba? And I think i'm getting a bit paranoid too... HIS mom texted me BUT on my dad's cellphone. it says "hello gwen, this is ___'s mom. his cellphone is temporarily with me. if u have important messages for him just txt it here"... why of course, a dad who'd get to read it could definitely tell that there's something, something odd going on!!!! waaaahhh... and of course, ever since i was young, they already know that i've been crushing on him.. no queries about that! waaahhh... i'm really scared with my dad! i know he knows.. his daughter is liking someone who doesn't belong to our religioun... and i know, he strongly objects having a relationship with non-INCs... we've talked about this a couple of times, but he really says "NO!!!!"... i understand him, he's just concern about us... But anyways, the bottom line here is, THERE is NO "US"!!! i think we're both afraid to commit since his religion also forbids to commit to a non-JW... so i guess we'll just remain SPECIAL FRIENDS!!! Broken hearts! hahaha... duh?!?

I have no intensions of hurting you, my friend. I like you and I love you only as a friend... no more, no less. I'm sorry... I don't know how or when will i learn to love you more than as a friend. I actually taught myself to love but it didn't last... i was just fooling myself and ended up fooling you. I am really sorry. Perhaps there's someone out there who deserves you more than i do. I know you'll find one coz you're one great guy. hope this won't ruin our friendship...

I like him but he tends to be very stupid! nakakainis xa! imagine, magcheCHANGE ng phone number on the day that we're supposed to meet! hello! pano kita matetext kung bago number? di ko pa naman alam kung pano makapunta sa place na pagmeMEETan natin! dapat nga sunduin mo ako dun sa skul namin or kahit sa may kanto man lang... or cguro dapat nag text ka sakin the night before tayo magmeet para man lang di na ako malito! mataas na sana puntos mo sa'kin kaya lang nasira on our day! hahaha... ummm kung sa bagay, baka rin naman i kept you waiting (if you did wait)... waiting for nothing....worried rin lang ako kase baka akala mo inINDIAN kita, eh i didnt do it on purpose... di ko lang talaga alam kung anong oras at kung saan! kasalanan mo rin kase... bat kase di kahapon nagtext.. at bat kase nagchange ng SIM today. bat rin kase wala akong cellphone!!! kakainis naman! hayaan mo, babawi nalang ako sayo sa INTRAMS namin... ipapakilala kita sa mga friends ko... waaahhh.. sana nga lang i'll have the guts para yayain ka! haay nakoo.. di mo lang alam kung gano ako kaWorried kanina kung pano kita matetext.. di mo lang alam kung gano ako kaWorried na baka mabasa ni ate yung tinitext mo.. Worried ako kase akala nila TAYO na, eh hindi naman! magkaibigan lang naman tayo, in the first place. At worried ako dahil kay ate ka nagtetext na magkikita tayo today... baka akala nun natuloy tayo sa gimick nating hindi rin naman gimick ang tawag! eh hindi naman!!! kaw kase!!!!! nakakainis ka... oh well, sa bagay, hindi rin naman ako handang makipagmeet sayo ngayon kase hindi man lang ako nakapag ayos or what... buti na rin lang yun.. hmmm next week nalang or next next week!!! kawawa ka naman..baka pinaghintay kita! sorry nalang talaga kanina! basta tccicailu... alam mo na meaning nyan..hahaha.. isa pa hindi ka rin naman makakabasa nito!!! wahahahaha... assuming lang gud ui!!!!

naiinis ako sa mga taong maniac at sexually preoccupied.. kala mo kung sinong magaling sa sex na halos ipagsigawang may lamang CONDOM ang wallet nila.. halos ipagsigawang bibili ng CONDOM para mapatunayang hindi na sila virgin at magaling sila sa mga ganyang bagay. Kala mo kung sinog gwapo eh ubod naman ng *&!@$#% never mind!!! mapapatanong ka nalang ng bigla kung totoo nga ba o nag hahallucinate lang siya... bulag at baliw lang ang papatol sa lalaking ganun! ang corny corny pa, nagprepretend na nahihiya, yun pala gusto. tapos maghuhubad ng tshirt sa harap ng maraming tao, kala mo kung sinong MACHO gwapito, ah hindi naman..ubod nga ng payat, parang palito! wala namang ka abs2x ang tao! at talagang may guts syang magpa display ng katawan nyang walang laman ha! kala niya tutulo laway namin? yucks! ano kami, HILO? hindi noh!

*[[psst! hoi popoy, wag na wag kang bumisita dito sa blog ko! kapag nalaman kong binabasa mo mga entries ko, patay ka sa 'kin! (at patay rin me sayo, huhu!). bawal ang mga entruders dito especially YOU! you are BANNED in this blog! hehe.]]*

anyways, kilig na kilig ako yesterday, kase we texted again! wakekekek! kilig na kilig ang lola! exams na baya next week tapos grabe akong pamiga! oh well, tama lang yan, pampaswerte sabay prayers to God diba? hahaha.. basta. feeling ko, ummm may pag-asa ako (hehe..ako pa jud naay pag-asa..kaluoy!!) basta nararamdaman ko..hehehe charmus.. joke lang. igat man sad diay to xa ui.. akala ko demure na lalake, may tinatago palang pagka aggressive ng konti..hehehe.. hoi ayaw lagi basa diri POPOY! ayyyppp!!!! bantay lang jud ka! suntok talaga aabutin mo pag nagkita tayo.. hehehe..

another boredom strikes me again!

No classes on thursday and friday, hurray! hope i'll have fun and make the most out of the worst... hope i could get hold of the bliss i've been longing to have, to bring back the happiness and the genuine laughter of a self-confessed hypocrite... wishing i could bump into him and finally take the stake to make a valiant conversation with him. wishing i could forgive those whom i could hardly forgive... wish i could let the people know the hatred i had inside towards them... wish i could still carry out the happiness and grin widely as possible.. wish i could be the real me.. wish i could be someone else rather than me.. haha..

hala ka ui! char-char lang ni na post ha.. haha.. wala lang!!! wakekekeke.. gimingaw lang ko mamiga!!! hahaha.. musta naman akong mga *keke* ui..charmus kaayo..

No Classes for Thursday and Friday since it's Brokenshire's Foundation day! Hurray! Sana i could invite him to come or he could invite me in their school. wala lang. Miss ko na c Popoy!

I'm finished with my RD!!!! yipeee.. so happy ako. di nyo lang alam pero para akong nabunutan ng tinik sa lalamunan. Now i could finally relax..hahay.. sarap matulog! Thanks nga pala kay Ma'am Lucy Ring, LOVE HER, LOVE HER.... i love our CI. ang bait!!!!!! and of course thanks to GOD.. MWAH!!

I'm planning to change my blog layout as soon as sooner. haha. dunno. if there's a vast spare time, why not? i'm planning to make a logo something about GOD... basta. often times kase i give much significance to my feelings in making a layout rather than my spiritual being. now i'm thinking of making it more wholesome. Also i wanna thank God for all the things He has done to me. basta. ewan kung kelan. after RD and everything else nalang siguro.

Tomorrow is gonna be another RD day. amf. kinda nervous and excited at the same time. hope i won't be too overwhelmed with these feelings since i tend to get mentally blocked. But of course i prayed to God to give me that presence of mind, knowledge and wisdom to answer questions, and self-confidence and to get a grade of 90+. yun lang. busy busyhan daw muna ako! bye my precious blog... mwah!

Assuming today was Friday, June 30. haha. hmm... we texted for like 5 hours and so, but of course that includes the effort to borrow cellphones from my classmates at school and all the way home again from my sister's. So yeah we texted all night. almost forgot to sleep early since i was consistently sleeping for just 5 hours everyday. But his presence peculiarly makes me nocturnal all of the sudden. Lol. Anyways, we talked about lots of stuff and eventually he asked me if i was mad at him or something... i said i wasn't. but he insisted. so i thought, "hmm, OKAY fine, i'm mad na!" He believed that i was, so he wanted to make "bawi" for me. He thought of asking me out. I know what you were thinking right now!!! is it a DATE??? nah! nope. (sayang nga eh..haha) I don't know what's the exact term for that but he invited me to their school.. just a tour!!! waaaahh.. kainis noh? sige nalang tour. sa PhilSci, TOUR. sa Usp, TOUR pa rin!!!! sus! kung pwde nga lang ako magyaya at gumastos eh, i'd most likely do it... pero ako naman maxadong malixosa, it's a friendly tour lang!!!! Wala lang yun sa kanya..hehe.. eh ako tong jokla maxado, super jugi na kahit sa'ng sulok ng mundo, pupuntahan at pupuntahan xa! haha. yah i know!!! i should not let myself fall for those guys who were filled with promises and sugar-coated words na parang cotton candy at hersheys na may halong toblerone at snickers...sarap nun ah! hehe.. ah basta.. the friendship must remain. we should stay friends!!!!! sigh*