Just droppin' by the Elab to post this entry. know what? i saw him today! nothing really changed . still the same guy i knew. also, he replied to my LATIN text messages and that started our small conversation..Lol. ewan. there's really soething on his text messages that make me feel that tingling-sensation. haha. Last night i suddenly became nocturnal when i received a reply from him. Waaah. And that made me awake for the whole night. That was also very much beneficial on my part since i got to stay up late and i was able to finish my RLE homework and studied a bit in HC Lec. hmmm... i really prayed for this guy huh! i prayed for us to become best of friends. dunno! was it answeres? or was left hanging?

OMG. this is really so alarming na! I think i like my ******... di pwde noh!!! basta di pwde sabihin dito kase baka due to unavoidable circumstances ah ma open niya blog ko tapos mabasa niya ang ka wirdohan ng ****** niya.waaaahhh.. sayang naman.. bat naging ****** ko pa xa! type ko pa naman kase matalino rin!!! my gosh!!! kung nagkataon......matitipuhan rin xa ng parents ko!!! waaaaahhhh... sayang.. baka magka hemophilia kase!!!!

today i thought i'd totally be used up and drained both mentally and physically, but i was wrong. eh kasi naman, classes starts at 8am tapos dismissal is 7pm. kaya sabi ko "ay grabe i'm sure kapoi me maxado nyan"... Major kase first subject kaya expect ko na ang unexpected..tapos we had long long vacant hours ..wala kaming ginawa kundi mag tunganga or punta library doing research..punta cashier para magbayad ..punta auxillary services for claiming books tapos chika ulit..yun! grabe.. tapos nung nalaman naming last subject namin was Philo, anticipate na naming BORING! pero again, mali kami.. ayun suppppeeerrr nag enjoy ako kahit papano..somehow na pawi yung gutom, and sakit sa mga kasu kasuhan.. nawala lahat ng sakit ng katawan ko..hahah ..ang saya saya talaga!!!! kaso, nung na dismiss na kami, super ihing-ihi talaga ako eh umaambon na, kaya tiniis ko nalang hanggang dito sa bahay.. haaaaayyy sa wakas... ang sarap ng feeling...

i think i need to be serious with my studies now ssince NURSING is the path i chose. buti kung IT or HRM lang yan na super sisiw noh! eh NURSING yan. mahal ang tuition.. mahal ang books.. mahal ang allowance.. everything is soooo expensive. of course no pain no gain. in order to succeed, i should strive harder and exert more effort every year... eh sophomore na me, kaya i should study na cguro especially because wala na c towkielicious (yvette).. hindi na kami dapat mag depend sa ibang tao. i should learn to avoid CHEATING as much as possible. haay naku! tsaka nawawalan na rin ako ng gana sa mga lalake.. parang pinagsawaan ko na sila.. tsaka na trauma na ako.. baka lokohin at bolahin rin ako diba? mahirap na! tapos nursing pa jud me, baka i-take advantage yung future profession ko diba?? akala nila mapera yung mga nurse or what.. tsaka i'm still very young pa naman to look for that guy. di naman ako super pangit para maghabol. gusto ko ako yung hinahabol..(parang aso) hmm.. basta til here.. gawa muna me ng assignment! HC1 pa bukas.. haay i'm using the dialect na naman!!! sorry tinatamad akong mag english ngayon eh! tatah!

i'm happy being a single but i do entertain suitors (as if???) hahaha. nah, just kidding. i'll probably have a serious boyfriend when i reach 25 or so, since my parents are both really strick; my course is really EXPENSIVE (5,000+/month excluding my allowance, books and other requirements); i still have dreams( becoming rich/ almost rich); i'm still looking for that smart, religious, responsible and traditional man (and not a lustful guy full of pretenses); i'm still too naive to handle such relationship (i even act childishly at school); i don't even know how to cook (i'm the worst cook you'll ever know); i had a trauma on guys based on someone's experience... etc. Lol. I've got a lot of things to do, errands to finish and missions to accomplish. i don't wanna hurt someone and i don't wanna hurt myself either. i don't want anyone to be a nuisance to my dreams and i don't want to wreck anyones dream just because of me. They could be my best friends and who knows, that best friend could actually make a good lover, SOMEDAY! you will only need to wait... wait... wait... haha! We don't have to hurry... Boyfriend/girlfriend stuff shouldn't be rushed, there's plenty of 'em. And besides, that's what mom and dad taught me... i was totally brain-washed by them. Everyday, every hour, almost every sec, they reprimand us about the consequences when you fall in love and have a boyfriend. When you fall for those sugar-coated lines, the girl gets completely mesmerized by the guy, she'll do anything and give everything to him, even her heart and soul (even virginity :p). And when it reaches to that point, the girl gets preggy, guy escapes for his responsibilities; girl gets hurt and runs back to her real family; family comforts her and will be the one who will raise and support the child. Or if not, even if you two are both financially stable, that does not necessarily mean that you're going to live life harmoniously... you should be responsible, loving, caring, undertanding enough. Easy to say you have it but hard to do. I know it sounds funny to think soooo pesimistic but it is true!

i happened to open my YM account last night and i was really surprised to see 3 offline messages from Yvette Clavano. It says:

yvette clavano (6/2/2006 6:15:57 PM): bye2x gwena, dili na gud ta clsm8..

yvette clavano (6/2/2006 6:16:01 PM): section b na gud ko

yvette clavano (6/2/2006 6:16:03 PM): huhuhuhu

At first,i really thought it was just a simple prank, but as soon as i texted her this morning, she told me the same thing. Perhaps it's TRUE! but why??? why her?? of all people who could (should) be parted from the section A, why did it have to be my friend? I know she's one heck of a geek but she's pretty(?), funny and smart. I don't want her to go! I want her to stay til we finish College...Please let her stay!!!

two days ago, i signed up to BlogSkins.com as a blog skin contributor and so i did. And again, the passion for blog designing fervently runs into my nerves and eventually got hooked up with my PC. I guess staying up for almost a day working in front of the computer is quite an evident to consider it as "being hooked up" as if there was this some sort of adhesion between us (PC and me). Geez :p So anyways, i did submitted 3 skins to BlogSkins and from the scale of 1-5, some rated my work as perfect 5.00 and some gave me a 4.50 . Not bad for a novice like me (huh?) who doesn't really have any formal tutorials about webpage designing. My co-designers in BlogSkins were undeniably competitive and in fact they were from Technology-based countries (whatever you'd prefer to call those!) like Singapore, China, Taiwan, Japan, etc. I mean, we all know that they are good at it and are way much better than i am. Unlike mine, theirs are of truly adorable and could have more downloads from bloggers. And just becoming a part of the BlogSkins contributor and be rated by my co-designers with a 5.00 is truly an honor (gushy!!!) and is really a big big deal for me!!! (pagpaxenxahan nyo na!) It somehow gave me a slight perkiness and encouragement to make better SKINS. Lol.


I think that'll be for now. It's late already and of course i'm still up behaving like a nocturnal geek. Lol. gotta go!