I can’t seem to understand why I suddenly fell for him again after hearing his voice over the phone. I wasn’t expecting this. Not until he called. When summer classes started, I wasn’t thinking of any of my guys. I was over with them already. I wasn’t even hoping nor dreaming about them. I seldom go online and chat, too.

But with that very short conversation we had, I realized how deep his voice is and how nice of him to still treat me nicely despite my faults for him.

still, there were no communication between the two of us. Also, i havent seen him for a loooong time. i dunno how, where or when i could finally get to see and emrace him. the time, the distance and the absence, its killin me inside. waaahhh. the gushiness of a young woman, trully sucks! i hate me!

I was up at 8 o clock in the morning, almost forgot my errand to finish our script for English 3 through my dad*s help. I was one hour late but still my group mates patiently waited for me at the Noreen building. i got to play the role of the Physician and it was quite easy since all i have to do was to blab a few things. After our rehearsal, i went to Victoria Plaza to chill out and stroll around. when i realized that it was around 12 noon already, i went home.

As soon as i got home, mom said that i should come with them. without any hesitation, i went with them along with my little sis. We attended a wedding ceremony since my mom was one of the Principal Sponsors. Afterwards, me, my sis, my dad and my mom were off to the Royal Pines Subdivision to look for some house and lots which are on sale.

Then we got home and i chenge clothes and went to church. After the congregation, went home and ate my dinner and did this entry.

That*s it!

I had my RS2 and PS2 class today. I utterly find it boring and all i did was to yawn and sit still on my chair. We had a 4 1/2-hour class on PS2 and had two quizzes. We were dismissed 30 minutes earlier this afternoon so i went to the mall and meet up with my high school classmate, Michelle. Geez, I really missed her. We haven*t talk for quite a while. All we did was to window shop (lik the usual) since we do not have money and blabbed about our life. yah.

My long wait is FINALLY over! (as if i really waited that long?) Our internet was back and i finally got to blog after almost a month of not updating my entries. There is a lot to be told but it would take me so long to post everything here. So hmmm.. let me think... I guess all i could say is, *Summer isnt FUN*. Well, my summer this year is most likely unusual since this is my first time to take Summer Classes. duh? It was my choice anyway. One thing I kinda regret was, i cant spend more time at home. It seems like i wont be having a vacation. waahhh...really tiring! Before i forget, i took up English 3, PS 2, and RS 2. These are all 3rd year and 4th year subjects which is most probably not appropriate!!! Lolz. Silly kid, huh? Just trippin. Til here. Bye.

a long time ago, i prayed for my dad to get well. I told God that I*d rather be poor than to have my family ill at ease. I*d rather have no money kaysa makita ko silang naghihirap because of any illnesses...I guess this prayer I just uttered has finally come to its realization. My dad now was having a progress pero take a look at our wealth, it*s sinking. Our bank accounts were almost empty. Wala na rin maxadong mga clients ang dad ko. Also, may mga buyers ng mga lupa kaya lang, they*re still very picky. They havent made up their mind kaya no commissions and attorney*s fee on our part. We*ve tried every single means of having money, not to mention, we*ve called my uncles from the States to send us money. We even thought of borrowing money from our friends. Also, naisip ko rin na iprenda yung singsing ko. After all, i dont really wear them diba? As in. Gusto ko nalang iprenda yung sa akin para lang makatulong ako sa gastusin kase wala na talagang ibang paraan... I know its kinda weird why we*re striving hard from poverty when in fact my father is a lawyer. We should be fortunate enough among others. But bakit kami nagkakaganito na halos gumagapang na lang. Is this what my prayer had cost us? geez. I'd say pinaglalaruan lang kami nang panahon. When everything gets too tough, I think we should always ask for God*s guidance. Siguro He*s mad at us coz we spend money a lot. Also, i dont pray that aften na. parang tinatamad na ako kase wala naman akong dapat ipray since its vacation na. damn ang tanga ko. ang selfish ko. Haay ang daming gastusin. Enrollments, Graduation payments for kuya, Water, light and phone bills, etc. ang dami!!! how i wish makaya namin ang pag subok na to.Siguro may pagkukulang kami sa Kanya or something. God please help US.

..`really hate people who would just suddenly perceive you as . . . this...that...this and that..yadda yaddah. It*s as if they really know you that well to the extent that they*d judge you in front of many people. We don*t even live and the same crib to tell me those absurdity. Even my family don*t have the prerogative to tell me such things since they dont really know what I did and what I feel. I just cant stand it why of all people, why would a friend do that to me...It really sucks a lot! geez. I like her but it seems like she*s the one who*s putting a gap between the two of us. She*s the reason why I*m starting to hate her. And so there are times that i merely tend to become very pretensive to her. hohum. I hate her. I hate myself. I hate this life. I hate everything in me. F***.