Yipee! Finally I am off with this NSTP course! And finally classes are over. Too bad I wont be taking summer classes for now due to financial problems. Hopefully I could make my summer a fun and exciting one, definitely a more different one than the last summer i had last year.

we had our NSTP community service at the BIHMI and so I thought that we were about to work together with the nurses and student nurses doing some mere tasks but I guess I totally misunderstood it. Lol. Guess what we did? Housekeeping!!!! For God sake!!! Geez!!! we simply cleaned the morgue, the laundry room, the garden, the basement, etc. dunoo how many areas we*ve cleaned, all I know is I munched a lot today. Ate my lunch, then I bought a bake mac, an ice cream, noodles, banana cue, avocado shake, etc. haha. Gutom talaga ako bah. Binubihos ko nalang sa KAIN ang lahat.

The Exam (for Physics…oh crap)

Saturday, I was up at 5:30 am and went to school for a Physics Exam. Almost got a failing grade but I passed noh! Spent 2 hours at school and went home right away.

The Wedding …
Motif was tangerine orange. Hate the color but when I wore my gown, shit, it looked good on me! So, anyways, here*s what happened as soon as I got home.


Mom and I went to orange grove hotel since jen, the make-up artists and everybody else were there. Geez, we were almost late. When I entered to the room where they were checking-in, boy it was crammed. Everybody was all dressed up and ready, except for me. So I went to the comfort room and put on my gown. Had my make-up and my hair fixed by that gay. Damn I look good!

At the strike of 2, off we go! and headed to Panacan. Urgh! It rained. Sucks! When we arrived, we were minutes late. They were all in line ready to walk on the aisle. Mom was one of the first ones to walk since they are the Principal sponsors. Next in line were the flower girls, ring bearer, groom*s men and bride*s maids…so and so. Minister Leo Baisa was the one who officiated the wedding. the ceremony was kinda gushy since the bride and my big sister shed tears. Hohum.


After the wedding, cam whoring time!!!

Afterwards, we went to Orange Grove for the wedding Reception. Did a lot of stuff. Ate a bunch! Yumm.. did some cam whoring stuffs. Then went home. So here I am making this entry. Hopefully I could upload those pics I had in here. Someone out there who could offer me to scan my pics??? Nah!!! I*m willing to pay… pictures lang!!

Classes are finally over but still we must come to school next week for our NSTP community service. The following week after the NST will be the enrollment for summer classes. Hopefully I could have one. Mom said it is not necessary for me to have summer classes so why not just stay at home. You know me, I cant stay at home and just plunge myself to boredom. I cant stay and eat up everything in the kitchen. Also I want to be busy this summer. Something like a *functioning* life this time around.

Feels like heaven when you have finally conquered the anatomy subject. Good thing my groupee and I did a good job on our oral exam even though my answers were quite far-fetched. Anyhow, I got a final grade of 83 and I kinda felt disappointed. But, anyways, I expected much worse than that. I really thought my grades would eventually flunk below the ground. My quizzes were apparently failing and if there were any passing grade, it would have to be a *75*. I really did not take this one seriously since I was quite preoccupied with someone at that time. Makes me wanna quit all my fantasies since it isn’t really healthy for me and its not really helping me after all. I was fantasizing someone who doesnt really feel the same way towards me. . But it seems like God still loves me despite my sluggishness with my studies.


So much for that absurdity, I just wanna tell you that I am through with him. I don’t even miss him like I usually do when we don’t chat. This time, I mean it, that’s for sure. I think my attention was diverted with my studies since I have been very busy with it. Yeah! Im making the best out of it. But, if ever you ll hear me blabbing about love or something mushy, it wouldnt be him. It would be someone different. Haha. Yup, I think Ive been crushing for someone else. I*ll update about that as soon as sooner!

I know this isnt the right time for me to blog since tomorrow will be our final exams but i cant help it, my brother was able to fix it and boy was i delighted to know that those malwares and spywares (whatsoever) were gone. So, kinda sneaked while brother was watching Tv and here i am. Yes i know, am too lazy to study. BTW, i slept 3 times today and this is why i cannot sleep tonight. haha. oh boy that was such an accomplishment. hehe. Its what i really need nowadays, a lot of dose of sleep. yeah. yesterday was our holy supper and i got to attend it twice. haha. i was actually finished at around 7:30am but i was tasked (along with bro. manego) to get the pandesal for my dad and a few others. As soon as i got back to church, mom left me (she actually said we d go home together) without any money or what. It was almost *panata* for the next *holy supper (9:30am) so bro. manego cannot drive me home (and of course i have no money) so i stayed in the car and listen and kinda sang along with the church choir inside the church. (really stupid of me). So yeah i waited for 2 hours for my sister to get dressed up (since she s a choir member) and went home with her. Luckily i saw my ever dearest crush, Elouie, in a distance when we were about to get in the taxi. he was wearing an undershirt with his black pants, really looking neat (geez he looked so fresh). haha. Anyways, i had my holy supper at 5:30am. I got to pray and pray and repent for my sins. It was quite a relief and felt at ease for bursting out all those grim thoughts, emotions, feelings and sorrows to God. I must say, i really am lucky to have Him. someone to share all my problems and all the hahaays of my life.

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Also i got to see my crush.haha. so cute. Elouie. i think i really like him na. haha. para kang tanga gwen. Sana bernard could take a picture of him. I know you can do it berns. hope youd get to read this. haha. i know you will. i guess im too sick of the other guy already. you know who he is. the nerdy one. Elouie, this time, a quiet one, more mysterious, more handsome, also witty, mestizo, an INC, a choir member and ummm un lang perhaps. kaya lang, these are the negative features: not tall, naive about love thingy, dunno about him... ayun! i dont want a piece of him... i want the whole thing, okay. haha. para akong rapist nito!!!! haha. sana dinggin ni bernie boy ang aking hinaing. i know ikaw lang ang may capability of taking his pic :p ano ba yun? chige na gud berns!!! puhleez. this summer, mag concentrate ako kay elouie, nyahhaha!!!

im chatting, blogging and studying, all at the same time. im really practicing to do multi-tasking nowadays since i barely get to do some stuffs for myself and my family. tomorrow would be a holy event for us INCs coz its our *holy supper and i really want everything to be ummm very well-organized (if thats the right word for it). monday will be our exams but still i dont have that fucking permit thing*. boy was i surprised that our clearances were still pending in the dean*s office. sort of ridiculous when it comes to signing, or shall i say, stupid? haay ewan. busy busy busy. cant wait for our NSTP graduation. cant wait for summer classes. cant wait for summer outings (if there is). cant wait for everything about summer!!!!

omigosh. life is really unpredictable. you wont know what fate might brought you. a blink or two, a lot might happen. geez. that scares me a lot!

i just attended our church congregation this afternoon (2:45 pm) and the officiating minister was Bro. Ocampo. Really love the way he preaches. (and also a few other ministers..love em* :p) He made me cry.. *huhu...i know it sounds quite mushy but ministers who gets into my nerves and touches the emotional side of me, it really impresses me, a lot. I hardly cry you know. I just realized how fortunate I am to be alive and have a God and family like mine. We re not rich but we re spiritually-strengthenized. (*winx) i just wish that this world we live in would just end. (*I know it sounds cruel) Oh well, dunno! til here na lang. buh bye :p

Cant think of any notable event this week eh...ummm oh well, my group and I just finished our research defense and that was a big relif on my part since I was really terrified with our panilist. Also, we just had 3 quizzes for Anatomy today excluding the Lab quizzes. We had 2 quizzes for the Lab, 1 for a group quiz and the other was for the individual quiz. All in all, we had 5 quizzes for only one subject. Clearance signing is what keeps me hectic this past few days. I havent paid my tuition yet which really bothers me a lot since my friends are done with it. Poor me! I havent submitted a 2 x 2 picture for that yellow thingy form so i cut my graduation pic but it was too small (like 1 x 1 ) so my clearance wasnt signed for the registrar. Shit! So i have decided to take a pic of me through my friends phone. So i did. The bad thing is, tomorrow would have to be a non working holiday which means *no school*. Fuck. I have to go to school this Friday!! oh crap!

The most strenuous week is finally over and the good thing is it was worth the sleepless nights, the tears, and the effort. Me and Vanessa are almost done with our Porfolio and Im done with my RD and quite lucky for having a grade of 93.8. haha really surprised with that grade coz I didn’t expect to to have a higher score since ive performed the most ridiculous RD ever… I didn’t established any bit of kindness with brushing my client*s teeth, I wasn’t organized (like id throw the towels and paraphernalias elsewhere), and I was only guessing my answers. God must have really pitied me coz I really prayed for the whole week for this. Anyways, I cant wait for that summer break, or shalt I say, summer class? Lol. Either of the two, but most probably Id choose to have a summer class, rather than staying at home and do nothing. Also, I have decided to carry on with the career I chose (or the people chose) for me. I think I will most probably stick to this unless my uncle (whose going home this April from NY to attend my brother*s grad) persuades me to stop my stupid ambition and get a hell out of it. Haay. They are really odd sometimes. Theyre the ones making decisions for me. Its my choice and not one or two can stop me from doing it. Hehe. Ewan!

*Still up right now, making our final requirements forFilipino. experiencing back pain again. amf!

*I'm still thinking whether i'll shift to another course or rather remain in this nursing pretensions. dunno really. Also upset with all the requirements given to us which were piled up and is all due this week. fuck! haay!

* Everything is just so mushy about me. I really hate it when I'm crushing on someone who doesnt love me back at all. I tried to forget and repress him to my unconscious memory but those feelings kept on coming back whenever he is around. waaa. I hate him coz he*s making fun of me, i know he is. Im just so stupid why of all people, why him? of all guys i could fall for, why that numb and insensitive one? I hate myself for still hoping that those silly fairytales do actually happen. I dont wanna hope for something impossible.i dont!!!! Shit! Shit. Shit! we re too much different!!!

Another update, just a follow up to that post i just had. This is about YOU again. Yes im referring to YOU. YOU loved that feeling and must have did that on purpose because of that too much curiosity you had to that world of lust. Im not really harsh in giving advices but the last post i had might sounded a bit sarcastic, so im sorry. Actually, the thing you did was not so bad. The bottom line is you dont have any commitment with each other. basta!!! di ko ma explain.

Im currently working with my RD memorization and absurdly whining with it since im quite traumatized with my past RD grade. Lol. It was an 81, almost failed. But hey, i got an 88 for both NCM and RLE for the Midterm so it must be a good job, huh? Still i want to impress our CI. Well, not totally to impress her, huh, i just wanna show her that i can do it. Talagang Sumablay lang ako sa Vital Signs. And i admit i was not prepared with that RD since i dont have a complete paraphernalia and really got myself totally blocked. Part of it was my fault and a tinny bitty part is because of our CI. Lol. I want everything to be perfect this coming Saturday, March 11. Just wanna relax and ponder everything..

Anyhow, i swore not to post anything about that unmentionable someone but ummmm... nothing. So that would remain as a promise. Hopefully an unbreakable one!

BTW today is Berns birthday... Happy Birthday Berns. He said something to me last night and really got me shocked. I thought he was a ummm faithful one to his ummm but ummm you know... Oh well, i barely know him well and i dont have the prerogative to ummm somewhat criticize his acts... immoral acts??? so might as well keep my mouth shut? haha i cant!!!! Whoa those are of obvious and crystal clear, it was disgusting, berns! Sorry to tell this in a public blog (anyways, nobodys visiting this) but you see, acts like those stuff shouldnt be done because of the mere fact that you are a CHRISTIAN, and you have disappointed and will be disappointing a lot of people (especially her).. Now, i know...haha... You were just showing that *false impression* just to win her, when in fact you were that guy whom i addressed as M****C...haha...just kidding. hope i did not offend you. Just giving a healthy advice for an online buddy..haha.. Here*s what, hold on with those lustful senses and if possible kindly repress those to your unconscious memory or else your future will be **wrecked**!!! (far-fetched??).