//**nOt anOthEr gUy???..*//

i am terribLy sOrrY iF i jUz chAngE maH gUys fOe jUz hMmm...wEekS????..Oh cOm'n..wHat'S wiT tha' sOrry pEachEs???... nywEiz i gOt a nEw crUsh.. wEll i can't tOtally saY tHat hE's a nEw crUsh cUz i likE himbEfOrE.. hE's namE iS EloUiE LamOstE.. chUrcH chOir mEmbEr.. i likE starin' at hiM wHenEver i'd gO tO cHurcH... hE's nOt jUz cUtE..hE iS handsOmE...hMmmp...bUt i tHink hE's tOo naivE fOe mE..wEll..i'm naivE anyWay...wUt eLsE???

Oh i rEad sOmE of thA' rUleS Of LovE..anD i gOt stUckEd wiT thiS..*nEvEr fall fOe a friEnd*..nEvEr evaH...tinamaAn acOh dUn aH... mOstLy i alWays fall fOe thEm... LikE maH *shOogaH-cOatEd-gUy* anD *maH-brOkEn-candY-gUy*...thEy'rE aLL maH friEnds whOm i gOt acCidEntaLLy in LurvEe... dUnnO wHy i'd aLwayS dOo tHat.. iT jUz hapPens.. thEy'rE all maH friEnds anD i dOn't want oUr friEndshiP tO gET rUinEd bEcUz Of tHis stUpiD fEelin' Of minE..aigHt??.. bUt wUt can i dOo.. maH friEndS arE tHa' OnE makin' mE faLL fOe tHem.. Or iS iT jUz mE whO easiLy faLLs???... nEed baCk-Up!!!!...whOaAaaaaa!!!!! maH GOD!!! whUat aM i dOin'..???

????eniGma????

i nEvEr knEw what iT waS likE tO loOk at sOmEonE and smiLe fOe nO rEasOn untiL i mEt hiM..whOsE him??? hE's maH *brOkEn candY*..whaT'S wiT thA' cOdE naMe??? hiS frOm brOkEnshiRe...anD hiS maH candY.. gOt anY quEstiOn?? sO aS i waS sayinG.. i mUst bE in LurvE??? i fOrgOt maH paSt rElatiOnshiPs bEcUz Of hiM.. haKhaKhaK..gEeZ..jUz kiddinG.. i'm craZy fOe hiM??? mUst bE.. iS hE spEciaL fOe mE?? a biT.. dOo i havE a ChanCe in hiS hEarT??? nOpE... am i hUrt??? nOt rEaLLy.. wOuld tHat bE mY rEal ansWer??? all i cUd saY iS *i am hypOcriTe at thiS mOmEnt**..gET it??? iF nOt..tHEn yO' stUpiD... iS hE nUmb??? nOpE.. di xa manHid..di nya ng talaga akO maHaL...

..am Learnin' tO gEt OvEr him..hEhEhe..

yUp..aS tHe tiTLe sayS..i'm LEarnin' tO gEt OvEr hiM..wekekekek..sOunDs likE paranG naginG kami??? kaHit hindi naMaN...hEhEhE.. i saiD tO maHsELf "di kO xA crUsh..yO' jUz fOrCing UrsElf tO him.." pEwO wHenEv'R hE tExtED mE paRang i'D fOrgEt ev'rYtHing.. mavaEt kaxE xa eH..sa skEwL pinaPansiN nyA akO paRati.. tHen saBay smiLe... OohHhh i hatE iT whEn hE smiLes..hE's gOt thOsE iRrEsiStibLe smiLe..waHaHahA..aH baSta aS LonG aS hE inspiRes mE, hE'll stiLL bE maH UltimatE crUsh.. vaEt nyA kaxE eH.. di kOh maintindiHan.. baT akO nahUhuLog sa kAnYa...Eh kapatiD lang nAman anG tUrinG namin sa isAt isa.. kUng iisip-isipin kO nOtHing hapPenEd bEtwEen tHe 2 Of Us..wLang nangyAring Ligawan.. wLang nagparamdam... iT's all text mEsSagEs...mEsSagEs na pUrO naMaN nOnsEnsE.. waLa taLagang dahilan para akOy mahULog sa kanya..pErO bakit ganOn???... magkaibigan nAMan kami..iT jUz hapPenEd..i jUz fELt tHa' sPexaL fEelin'..waHahAha..cOrny!!!.. mE falling in LurvE??? tHat's an absUrd.. impOsSibLe bUt it diD hapPen.. LovE mOvEs in mYstEriOus waYs??? iwWw hUh...i'm gEtting cOrniEr na...wEkekekek... aH basTa it's part Of life ang magKarOon ng crUsh..prObLema ba yUn..waLa namang BataS na nagsaSabing bawaL anG ma in lovE diba???..kaya...wLa lng.. i stiLL likE him.. i'll nEvEr gEt Over him..maLi pala ang title ng jOurnal kO tOday..wEkekeke...

i arE tirEd..

i arE sO exHaustEd tOday cUz i waSn't abLe tO sLeEp Long enOugH Last niGht.. knOw wHy??? i madE maH fUckin' rEpoRt in fiLipinO..gEeZ.. tHis daY iS a bUmp aNd grinding dAy.. a piLe Of aSsiGnmEnts.. f***..nYwEiZ, mE anD vanEsSa finaLLy gOt tO sEe "rEvsAn eLizaLdE" whO waS a candidatE Of tHe sEarcH fOe tHa' mR. anD mS. brOk..aCtuaLLy iT waS Our firSt tiMe tO sEe hiM in pErsOn .. vanEsSa waS quitE UpsEt wiT hiM cUz shE hEarD sUmtHin' bad 'bOut rEvsan..dUnNo 'bOut it..brYan waS tHa' OnE whO tOld hEr 'bOut tha' rUmOr.. nywEiz, tHe OnLy tHin' tHat madE maH day cOmpLetE waS "maH candY"..i tHinK tHat's wHat am gOnNa caLL maH crUsh.. hE paSsEd bY Our cLasSrOom in PsyCh cLasS..jUz a gLimpsE Of hiM iS enOugh fOe mE.. knOw wHat, maH hEart bEatS fasTer wHenEver i seE hiM..caN't stOp maHsELf frOm smiLing.. i dUnnO.. i dO smiLe a LOt bUT wHen i sEe him iT's nOt maH UsuaL smiLe anymOrE..iT's mOrE tHan tHat.. i gEt tHat biiigggG smiLe..maH hEart dOes skiP a bEat wHenevEr i sEe him..wHew..i LovE drUgs..anD hE's maH fav'riTe kinD cUz hE makEs mE damN sO hiGh..

prEtty Li'l siS??? *OuCh..*

hEy..mE anD sHeng'zUe gOt tO tExt tOdaY..i waS sO hapPy cUz hE sEnt mE LovE qUOtEs anD *i lovE yEw* mEsSagEs..bUt saD tO saY Li'l siS LaNg taLaga tUring nYa sa 'kin..iT hUrts bUt Okay na riN..aT lEasT i knEw iT earLiEr dVah??? anD at LeAst maY ka tExtmatE na rin acOh kaHit paPanO..kaHit haNgGanG briDgE naLaNg..*LauGh*.."LifE iS iS LikE a bOx Of chOcOLatE, yEw'll nEvaH knOe wHacHa gOnNa gEt.."parEhO na kami ni vanEsSa nitO..hangGang siS naLang... dUh?? i gUeSs gUys arE nOt mEanT fOe mE.. Lagi naLanG naUudLot.. i aM baD maMajamMa gOddAmiT mOtHa' fUcKEr...jUz kiDDing..

LOVE** rEaLLy dOes sUcKs..

it was OnLy nOw tHat i'vE cOmE tO rEaLizE hOw iT rEaLLy hUrtS na gawin kanG bridgE nG taOng gUstO mO.. iT waS LikE i hEarD maH hEarT yELLin' *oUch* lasT nigHt..iT rEaLLy dOEs hUrt..gEez** i dUnNo wHat wOrdS tO uTTEr wHen hE askEd mE 'bOut thE gURL whOm hE rEaLLy LikEs...i gOt sO damN hypOcritE aT tHa' mOmEnt hE askEd mE... i gOt stUmbLed aNd said " i'LL hELp yEw wiTH hEr..dOnCha wOrrY.." iT gOt wOrsT .. hE tHen askEd a favOr tO havE thA' gUrLs phOnE nUmbEr..anD again *OucH *..tHen i tOLd him "anG sWerTe nG crUsh mO cUz yO' a pErfEct gEntLeman anD wafU mO"..anD tHat diDn't aFfect hiM mUch...hE barEly knOws i'm faLLing fO' hiM aLrEadY...hE iS UttErLy nUmb hUh??? a gUy wiTh nO cOmmOn sEnsE.. i waSn'T tHat cLevEr afta' aLL cUz i fELL wiTH hiS traP..aNd tHat iS tO faLL in LovE wiTh him..akO pa ngayOn anG ginaWang tuLay sa crUsh nya..Urgh!!! masakiT yUn aH..bUt am stiLL hELping him wiTh tHat gUrL..i did sEnt him a piCtUrE Of tHa' gUrL namEd "vanEZa" anD wOrsT iS sHe iS maH cLasSmatE waY bacK in eLemEntarY..hE madE mE siCk Last niGht..i quiTe rEgRet wHy i LikEd him...daRn iT!!! i waS stUpiD..i aRe nOt cLeveR afTer aLL...sHit!!! i LikEd hiM aLrEadY anD hE gavE mE uP tHat eAsy???? {LauGh...**} gUys arE wOrtHLesS Of mY aTTentiOn... tHey dOn't dEsErvE maH LOVE..cUz wHen i'd LOvE, i dO LovE..wHen i'd diE fO' sOmEonE, i dO diE fO' tHat sOmEOnE..sO wHy wEap wHen nO OnE dEsErvEs it??? hE likEd mE anD i likEd him bUt hmmMppp..hE Let gO..hE did nOt hOLd On..LauGh**...wHatta stOrEe..tHis LovE stOry iS a craP fO' shO'.. i dUnnO.. i gOt fOoled again??? gEez..i trUly rOx maH Own sOx..LauGh**

Reasons why Women find it hard to find the Man of their Dreams:
1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough. 9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards. 10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!
11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative. NOW, WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN? "Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes,

lovE hUrTs..aigHt??? bUt whY dO wE dO iT OvEr anD OvEr agaiN??? i gOt cOnfUsEd anD waS stUmbLed wHen i waS asKed wiT tHiS qUestiOn..wHy dO wE dO iT OvEr anD OvEr anD OvEr agaiN eVen iF iT takEs hEarT brEakS OvEr agaiN anD OvEr again???hakHak..bObO daW tayO paGdatinG sa pag-iBig..agrEe??? i dO..cOrnY pa nGa eH..agReE??? i dO..haKhaK..i dUnNo 'bOuT tHis LovE tHinGy..i'm qUitE naivE wiT iT yaH knOw..bUt i diD feLL in LurvE wiT sOmEOne..bUt iT diDn'T LasT..jUz likE a sEasOn i guEsS.. nOtHin' sO sEriOus..jUz a gamE.. i wasN''t hUrt eitHeR sO tHat aiN't trUe LOve..aiGht??? wEll anYwaYzZ pLeaSe cOmmEnT On tHis cRaP Of minE..waHaHa..ayAyAyAy.. i havE sOmEOnE spEciaL rigHt nOw..bUt hE dOesn'T kNow 'bOuT maH fEeLinGs..bEttaH keeP iT tO maHsELf..i dOn't wan'T Our fRiendshiP tO vaniSh..jUz LikE maH bEsT friEnd diD..anD jUz likE wUt i diD..??? hakhakhak..nywEiZz..iT's Our exaMs tOmOrrOw bUt aM stiLL starin' in frOnt Of mAH PC.. gOtTa gO..

craMminG pOh acOh ngAyOn cUz nExt wEek iS Our exam aNd stiLL i havEn't stUdiEd maH LesSOns..gEeZz.. nkAkatamad kxE.. hOpE i gEt tO fOcuS wiTh iT..maS gUstO kO pa anG nakAtUnganGa sA PC rathEr tHan stUdying...nKakataMad tALaga..eWan cOh.. uUmMm..tRy cOh sigUrO ngaUn mag-aRaL..chiGe..til hErE naLang..jUz drOppin' by..nO timE na Eh.. stUdy na mUna acOh.. kELangan cOh na sigUrOng i-carEer na riN a Ng nUrsiNg thOugh iT's nOt mY chOicE..anG hiraP mag-araL pag di mO gustO ang ginagawa mO..wishinG fOe mYsELf tO LearN tO LovE maH cOursE..i haTe iT kaxE..naKkUu..i wiSh kahiT paPanO mY inspiratiOn acOhng pUmUnta nG skEwL nOh??? wLa eh..panO yan..saNa magiNg mabUtinG nUrsE acOh..pray cOh kaYa kaY LorD..

~*~maH mOm bOught twO bOxeS Of kEloggS cErEaLs anD i gOt tO tastE a li'l biT Of iT.. and mUch Of maH sUrprisE iT tUrnEd OuT tO be maH favOritE midniGht snaCk.. i rEaLLy LurvE iT..yUp yUp yUp..i finD iT sOoOo yUmMy tHat i can'T jUz rEsiSt aT aLL... ~*~

~*~gWyNeTh~*~

thank God i have no class tomorrow... and finally i get to sleep longer..i'm really exhausted with my daily routine going to school..waking up 5 a.m. and doin' all those tiring projects and assignments.. it must be really hard when you reach 2nd yr..3rd..yr..4th yr..it becomes worse every year!!!! hOllaback girl!!!..well anyways i'm quite unlucky today coz my button in my uniform got ripped... yup..bad trip..geez..

i had my NSTP today and fortunately we were dismissed earlier... Anyways i went to my former school and met my friends. I got to see my long lost best friend, Khay who now studies at St. Mary's College in Tagum City. She said she might shift to IT this incoming semester coz she was having a hard time with BSN. Me? i'll stick to my course. i know it's quite hard but why not take it as a challenge? I wanna be like my brother and sister whose now in their 3rd and 4th year college as nursing students. If they can do it then i can as well, right? Apart from that, Jen, Rubylene, Gaw,Khay and me went to the mall to spend quality time together. We did what we've always do before. We ate at Port Cafe` and then went on window shopping...well nothing has really changed to us. As usual, we'd laugh and hunt for cute guys...{`*laugh*`} i got to see a lot of my classmates in Brok. Guess what? i saw Lumer with a girl! whew!!! He really is a tough and brave guy who could dare to ask for a girls number. Now, with him is my my friend way back in elementary, Angeline. And she's pretty!!! He did it again.. chickbOi!!! i call him *idol* coz he acts so simple and yet he asks for the girls number right away. {*laugh*}.. me and my buddies went to net express even though i got an internet access at home. i just visited my company site called wisdomian's tambayan and posted journals, etc.Uummm, what else?and Oh, i received a mobile number from someone {business card}..no name on it..so i tried texting it. i dunno. i texted it. no replies. maybe he/she is SMART user {unlimited}..or maybe that someone is a bit thrifty to spend a peso... well gotta try texting him/her tonight.